I don’t know, I often think that just being thin and healthy again would be, and should be, enough of a prize. I think that maybe it would be enough motivation. But, as I’m still stuck in the same old place, maybe ‘dangling the carrot’ is not such a bad idea.

A couple of Decembers ago, I bought myself the most gorgeous purple suede dress, thinking it could serve this purpose. I actually found it at the Goodwill, but, it was in such amazingly good condition – for only $6 – that I had to snatch it up! I knew it was way too many sizes too small, but, with it being in such good condition, and being just the kind of dress that I love – I bought it, thinking I would motivate myself to get moving, knowing that it was in my closet waiting for me.

It is still waiting, though. Maybe the prize needs to get bigger – I like the thought of that. I would love to reward myself with a trip! It would be really great, and inspiring, to know that if I met my weight loss goals, I could go on a nice getaway! I’d love to go to New York City – one of my very favorite cities! My mom took me a few years back, and we are both itching to go again. Or I could go to Branson, Missouri – ever since I read about it in Reader’s Digest years ago, I have wanted to go there! It’s cool, because it is billed as “Family Friendly Las Vegas”, and seeing as I no longer drink or party, that would fit me perfectly! (Well, except for my ‘sailor’s mouth’ – we’ll have to work on that, too, I guess!)

So – what do you think? Do you think offering up gifts or trips as the proverbial carrot is a good way to approach getting healthier?

I see her, she’s right there – right over there! Don’t you see her? If you don’t – then you’re just not looking hard enough. See, I talked to a psychic recently, and I really liked her! She was so nice, and even though she refused to give me the winning lottery numbers, she did help me feel a lot better!

And the most important thing that I came away with, was to ‘see myself thin’. My instructions were to look in the mirror several times a day and envision myself skinny again. There really is something to that. All kinds of life coaches will tell you the same thing. I think that is the main premise behind ‘The Secret’, too. I haven’t watched the whole thing, yet, so I’m not sure. But I’m pretty sure it is.

So now you might be wanting to ask me, ‘Well, Lisa, is it working? Huh, is it?’ Well, I could answer that if I’d been good about doing it. I haven’t. I think I did it for a few days after talking with her, and then life got busy and life got crazy, and the best laid plans…

You know how the story goes. Maybe I should add it to The Healthy Habits List.

Hmm…

I haven’t been doing so well with taking care of my weight loss. And I just was outside with Sammie and her friend, and as I was coming inside – watching my reflection in the storm door really bummed me out. Some days I think of just using something like a diet patch, but, I know it’s about so much more than that. If that would even make a difference. I need to work on what’s inside, so that I become more willing to take care of what’s outside. And life just gets so hectic, you know? Or perhaps, more like probably, that’s another excuse. Ugh. This is so hard. It’s so simple, but, it’s so hard.

I am so sick and tired of being fat!! Just completely sick to death of it. It is just so hard, being over 35, and having had three kids, and having had a hysterectomy – it’s like I have all the cards stacked against me. It would be so cool to be part of a market research study for weight loss and get some free help with it! Who knows? I might even get paid for it! There used to signs on the side of the street in Dallas about some program like that. I would really love to find something like that right now, because I am just done. Done. I am so entirely sick of not feeling like I am even being ‘me’. That part about it is not only very weird, but also, very uncomfortable. And I am ready to be Lisa again. Naturally.

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I feel like I am at a crossroads again, or a jumping off point, if you will. Which is odd, because I find myself here so blankety-blank frequently. I am needing to get back in the swing of things with my weight loss, though. And I guess, I could be grateful that I continue to arrive here, instead of falling off the wagon and abandoning all hope forever. So it’s good news that I want to get back on the horse. The falling off part is in the past. Right. That is the best way to look at it. When I was doing so well before, I was taking a diet supplement. I wasn’t taking the full dosage, and I wasn’t even taking it every day. I think I just used it for the gentle nudge in the back to keep me going, you know? I would like to try to find another one, though. It had Hoodia in it, which I think helped me, but, it also had something in it that made my heart race like a young thoroughbred just released from the gate! It was awful! I don’t remember if it was caffeine, or what, but, I would like to try one with just Hoodia in it, I think. This is all just so frustrating. I remember when I was a friggin’ teenager and young 20-something and I thought I was so fat! Could someone please find me a time machine, so I can go back and slap the crap outta that me?! And if I wanted to lose weight back then (yeah right, like I had any to lose!) I would just make it happen. Almost like snapping your fingers and the weight is gone. What I wouldn’t give…
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