Nope – I didn’t make it – I had a super crazy day yesterday!
Ugh…
Archives for February 2007
Healthy habits for Thurs, February 22
February 23, 2007 by Leave a Comment
Nope. I didn’t make it yesterday – missed out on the exercise.
Doing great on everything else!
Healthy habits for Wed, February 21
February 22, 2007 by 2 Comments
WOOOHOOOO! I did it! I completed the list yesterday! Totally awesome!
And my sweet and talented friend, Retta – fixed up my reward graphic! Purdy, huh?
The one thing on the list that has been hard for me for about a week is the exercise, but, yesterday I went outside and played with my daughter. It was tons of fun – and it helped me complete the list, too! Perfect!
I think I’m gonna up the water to two bottles, too.
Meeting skipper!!
February 22, 2007 by 2 Comments
I am totally busted! Remember this post: Boy howdy, do I need a meeting!
Well, I didn’t go to a meeting… *hangs head*
I did get off the computer and call the girl whose father is in the program, but, I didn’t get a hold of her.
I had three possible numbers I could call. She has a home and a cell. And then there is the intergroup number.
So first I tried one of her numbers – and it went to voicemail….I got nervous, didn’t leave a message, and hung up.
And then didn’t call her other number – or the intergroup number.
Go ahead – you can say it….”WIMP!!”
(Oh, for those of you who don’t know, intergroup is the office that helps out all the local AA groups and kind of keeps everyone organized. So like, say, if there wasn’t anyone available at the actual AA group, I could call intergroup to find out meeting information, or even to talk to someone if I was in a mess…)
So then I was gearing myself up to go Tues. night to the NA meeting, but, it starts at 7pm, and my hubby didn’t get home with the car until later.
So here we are on Thursday…the next ‘good’ time would be tomorrow night, here in town, at one of the local churches.
And that is what I plan on doing. I will let you know what happens.
Healthy habits for Tues, February 20
February 22, 2007 by Leave a Comment
I don’t remember what I missed, but, I didn’t make the whole list.
I know I missed exercise, and I may have forgotten to pray in the morning.
But – I’m making an adjustment to that one. One of the most valuable things that my precious AA sponsor taught me was that I could start my day over anytime.
Total surprise! You mean, if I had a rotten morning, I could still have a good afternoon, for example? Yep! You sure can.
And one way that I make sure to facilitate this, is to hit my knees anytime of day! Especially if I have forgotten in the morning! Or heck, even an extra time! God loves that connection with you!
So usually, when I realize that I’ve forgotten to say my morning prayers, no matter what time it is, I will hit my knees and say them!
And so – from here on out – if I do this by a long enough time before bedtime – let’s say 3pm – then I’m going to count it on the list.
Funny thing is, I usually realize sometime around noon. So that is definitely a good time. I guess it would be kind of silly to say my ‘morning prayers’ at 6pm, and then go to bed and say my night time prayers at 8pm. LOL
But if I remember in a reasonable amount of time, I’m counting it.
Because not only does that mean I’m ‘making the list’ – but, more importantly, I’m taking an active role in living the way that my sponsor taught me!
And that rocks! I miss her so damn much – she passed in 1997, and that not only gets me ‘on the beam’, as we AA’s like to say, but, it also makes me feel so much more connected to her!
Healthy habits for Mon, February 19
February 22, 2007 by Leave a Comment
Nope – didn’t make it, but, to be fair – I had six kids at home all day.
It’s kind of funny, with all those kids, but, all I missed out on was my exercise!
My daughter had a friend over, and we were taking care of my two nieces.
So it was a noisy and hectic, although happy and fun, day.
I have a lovely friend, Cass, who has eight kids at home – every day – they’re all hers!
I could totally do that, but, I think it would be all about the kids. I don’t know that I could do all of my online work, as well.
But I guess, one adapts, and maybe I would be as proficient as Cass! Who knows!
I always did want a lot of children, but, nature intervened…
And I’m sure it turned out just like God wanted it. So I shall live vicariously through my friends like Cass!
Boy howdy, do I need a meeting!
February 19, 2007 by 1 Comment
I couldn’t need an AA meeting any worse than I do right now! Yikes!
We moved here on July 1st and I still haven’t gone to a meeting yet – have I already talked about that here? Hmm…
Anyway, I have been talking to some of my online friends, who are very supportive, and one of whom is actually in the program. And I have been hemmin’ and hawin’ about … “ah, yeah, I’m kind of nervous to go…yada yada…”
And the other day, I just came right out and said it, “I’m scared to go.” …and you know what? Wow! That took all the power out of it! Well, most of the power anyway.
The funny thing is – I think it reduced my ‘being scared’ back down to ‘being nervous’ – that’s a bit ironic, eh?
The truth shall set you free. How true, how true.
It’s like when you’re feeling like you want to get drunk (if you’re an alcoholic) and you tell your friends…”yeah, it sure would be nice to sit on the porch on a sunny day and have a beer” or “I never got to try Smirnoff Ice, sure would like to try that”
When inside, maybe even hidden from yourself, what you’re really thinking is,
“I want to get drunk!” Damn, dude – just get honest with yourself, get honest with others, and just SAY IT!!!
It is truly amazing how much power is taken out of it when you do.
When I first started coming around AA, I was truly afraid to say shit like that, to myself or others – I thought that made me a bad alcoholic. (the recovering kind…)
But – guess what? You are an alcoholic! (said into the mirror!) That is actually normal!
Yes, it is normal, completely normal, for me to want to get drunk. It is actually abnormal for me to have a loved one die, a marriage end, a job lost, etc, etc – and stay sober through it!
Because I am an alcoholic.
And all of everything that I learn as it pertains to my drinking, or staying sober, if you will – pertains to all of everything else in my life.
So all I had to say was….”I’m scared to go to a meeting.” And that made things so much better.
You know, I’m 36 years old and I’m 15 years sober, and I just thought that my feelings were totally ridiculous. However – I’ve never lived more than nine miles from my mother – or my home group! I’ve gone to new groups when I’ve moved – but, all in the Dallas metroplex.
So it’s time for me to cut myself a little slack, and realize that this move is such a big adjustment for me, in many ways.
Now I’ve got to go – I’ve got to find a ride to that meeting!
Thanks Peeps! Ya’ll ROCK!!!!!!!
Healthy habits for Sun, February 18
February 19, 2007 by Leave a Comment
I didn’t make it – I missed the exercise and the water bottle.
But I think I’m going to change the fruit/veggie thing to 3 a day – because I’ve been eating a can of fruit, and it says it is 3 1/2 servings.
I just hope that on the days we are out of fruit and I have to eat something I don’t like quite as much, say french green beans – that I can eat as much.
Surely I can – right?
Healthy habits for Sat, February 17
February 18, 2007 by Leave a Comment
No, I didn’t make the list yesterday. It was a gloomy, cloudy day outside and in my mental state.
I didn’t just totally blow off the list – the gloom wasn’t that heavy, but, I didn’t make all of it.
Sun came out today – feeling a bit better…will report in the morning..
Healthy habits for Fri, February 16
February 17, 2007 by 2 Comments
Ok, so I made it on Friday – I completed the list! Yea!
But – this is my first attempt at a ‘You’ve done it’ trophy for myself on the days I make it – not very good, eh?
I’ll keep working on it – or I might just give up and ask my friend, Retta – to make one for me!
First I think I’ll give it a go a time or two more, though….
